Underdo the Competition

Happy Thanksgiving!

Great food, great company and great atmosphere! Thank you Lord!

Can’t wait till black friday shopping!!!

Hope

Few days ago, i found out I didn’t get the scholarship that I’ve been applying for two years. I felt like I have met all the criteria and my grades were good. I felt even more  crushed when I found out several of my peers got it. I started to question God. Is it because I don’t have good relationship with my professors cause one of my professor doesn’t really like me.

Was I confused and unsatisfied? yes. Did I try compare myself with my friends? yes. Did I cry? yes. Was i homesick? heck yes. I felt I was just not good enough. I felt I don’t belong here. But was I able to recognize it as a lie? not really.

This morning, I found out my grandma has passed away and I wont be able to go to her funeral. In my tired and tearful state, the Lord reminded me of the song “tis so sweet to trust in Jesus”. He showed me His love through people around and reminded me the HOPE we have in Him. So many people go through same thing but don’t have the HOPE.

Through this process, I realized a lot of “hardships and pains” are just insignificant and temporary. My insecurities, feelings of not belonged and disappointment are just so minute and selfish. 

God gave me this verse before I got the news “My lover speaks and said to me, ‘Arise my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me.’” songs of songs 2:10. My grandma has gone with the Lord. Jesus Christ died on the cross to take away our sins, shames, insecurities etc… just so that we can be with him forever. Now, this is HOPE.

Don’t be afraid

Dear future daughter,

Don’t be afraid to try new food,

don’t be afraid to eat tamales and zucchini,

don’t be afraid to drink apple cider,

 don’t be afraid to run in the cold, 

don’t be afraid to watch the mavericks games, 

don’t be afraid to try a new sport, 

don’t be afraid to sing out loud, 

don’t be afraid to dance like there’s no tomorrow,

don’t be afraid to smile, 

don’t be afraid to tell a lame joke, 

don’t be afraid to be silly,

don’t be afraid to not be the coolest kid,

don’t be afraid to be little miss sunshine,

don’t be afraid to be perky,

don’t be afraid to be yourself, 

don’t be afraid to speak up, 

don’t be afraid to laugh out loud, 

don’t be afraid to talk to new people, 

don’t be afraid to make new connections, 

don’t be afraid to hang out with people different from you,

don’t be afraid to accept a new culture, 

don’t be afraid to be friendly, 

don’t be afraid to be comfortable, 

don’t be afraid to embrace life, 

don’t be afraid to face challenges, 

don’t be afraid to make mistake,

don’t be afraid of failure,

don’t be afraid to be disappointed,

don’t be afraid to go to new places, 

don’t be afraid to get onto a new adventure, 

don’t be afraid to put yourself out there, 

don’t be afraid to not know what’s gonna happen tomorrow, 

don’t be afraid to not know what you’re gonna be when you grow up, 

don’t be afraid to not have a plan, 

don’t be afraid to TRUST GOD.

p/s: Mommy spent too much of her life being afraid of things that she hopes that you will have the courage to seize every God given opportunities. Even though it took mommy a while to realize certain things, but know that she has no regrets in life. Remember to love God, love people, and of course, yourself.

From: Mom

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I know i’ve haven’t really updated my blog recently but i’ll upload some photos of KL trip and Japan mission trip soon.

I realized God has been taking really good care of me and I do not need to do anything to earn that because God’s grace for everyone is free.

I’ve been traveling a lot for the past few weeks. Sometimes alone, sometimes with people, sometimes even with angels that are not visible. Nevertheless, God has been with me all the way, (even in the cockpit).

I’m also grateful that he has helped arranged someone to pick me up from the airport in Abilene, prepared a place for me to spend the night before I move into my dorm, provided me financially to buy “stuffs” and even gave me free yoyo to drink tonight .

I came across this verse when I was on the local train in Japan. I realize God has been really good to me and he has been aligning the desires of my heart to his. 

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 37:4

I hope all of us will continue to seek God’s heart, because when we do that he will give us the desires of our heart.